[Post-Skyhold was something of a mess, Araceli not exactly at her best in the end after the shape the announcement took anyway.
Probably better this waited.]
You know they took people? Again. And I-- it's a thing. A thing that happened, and maybe I was naïve to think it wouldn't come up again but there was a chance to swim alone to the Galicia and I couldn't do it because I was afraid I'd freeze. Or forget myself.
Because what happened is this thing that happened and I think people saw the marks go away, and my leg has a scar only Korrin sees but it's-- is it there?
[Is it bad for you too to talk about it Cosima? Does it sting red raw to skate fingertips over it, to favour it the way you would a twisted knee that won't go bearing your weight in a hurry? Who else can she talk to this about, who else was there the same way?]
Yeah, it's definitely still there. I don't have any physical scars, but, um. Nightmares, still. And some of the stuff... some of it I'm not sure what's actual memories and what was the lyrium. I figured you wouldn't want to talk about it -- shit, I don't want to talk about it most of the time -- and everyone else is gone.
[It almost surprises her, how it all just comes tumbling out at the first prompting. It's been so long since she's talked about it in more than the most glancing way.]
I thought I could pick that bit apart? Seams or stitches but there are holes or I just don't know. I can't ask. [That's what stings, the way there won't be an answer, that it might go away one day or it'll be this way forever and she'll have to come to terms at last.]
I-- it felt cruel to talk to people about it. Then they don't get to forget it maybe. It'll be in their heads, but I can't forget it and since I was asked to go to Minrathous it's been worse.
Not the Hanged Man-- There's the Straddle or the Blooming Rose? The Blooming Rose has the better drinks but I know a brothel isn't for everyone but I can guarantee we absolutely wouldn't be bothered there.
I'm happy to continue here, but if you need a base AC thread we can also jump to Cos' open post
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Probably better this waited.]
You know they took people? Again. And I-- it's a thing. A thing that happened, and maybe I was naïve to think it wouldn't come up again but there was a chance to swim alone to the Galicia and I couldn't do it because I was afraid I'd freeze. Or forget myself.
Because what happened is this thing that happened and I think people saw the marks go away, and my leg has a scar only Korrin sees but it's-- is it there?
[Is it bad for you too to talk about it Cosima? Does it sting red raw to skate fingertips over it, to favour it the way you would a twisted knee that won't go bearing your weight in a hurry? Who else can she talk to this about, who else was there the same way?]
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Yeah, it's definitely still there. I don't have any physical scars, but, um. Nightmares, still. And some of the stuff... some of it I'm not sure what's actual memories and what was the lyrium. I figured you wouldn't want to talk about it -- shit, I don't want to talk about it most of the time -- and everyone else is gone.
[It almost surprises her, how it all just comes tumbling out at the first prompting. It's been so long since she's talked about it in more than the most glancing way.]
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I-- it felt cruel to talk to people about it. Then they don't get to forget it maybe. It'll be in their heads, but I can't forget it and since I was asked to go to Minrathous it's been worse.
[There's a pause, a space between heartbeats.]
Is it a good time to go for drinks?
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I'm happy to continue here, but if you need a base AC thread we can also jump to Cos' open post
[She's not entirely sure if Araceli knows that expression, on reflection, but whatever.]
Let me get my boots on and I'll head over that way.
thank you that works!