When specifically asked, yes. I'd work on the assumption that she isn't going to volunteer anything and be precise and detailed in conversation.
( in fact, she did work on that assumption, and pressed it specifically because she wanted to know—
maybe for different reasons than cosima would have done, but it's not as if either option was going to make her happy. one way she was selfish, the other, punished needlessly. )
[She exhales. It's better in some ways, worse in others.]
...noted. Thank you. I. [A pause.] Stephen's taking care of her physically, I assume. Is she. Should I hold off on a visit, or do you think it matters for now?
[She'd known Casimir, a little, though they weren't close. But she still feels like most of her knowledge of Tranquility is academic. She'll take advice, if there is any. This isn't something that's going to resolve in the next few days, or even weeks. Even while most of her is on fury, part of her is on thanking Gwenaëlle, coordinating with Stephen, telling Yseult and Marcus, and if that part is spinning a bit fast, maybe it's not so separate from the fury as it first appears.]
( gwenaëlle had been close to casimir. she had met him as a tranquil; as a man who had been tranquil for years by the time they met. their friendship had grown from that meeting, not some seed planted before or after, and it's disconcerting to compare the experiences,
she's trying not to. it's almost impossible. )
For you, ( she decides, ) it matters. It's— complicated now, for her. I don't know what rationale she's using to judge anything by, yet. She will have one, it's not—
She's still a person. She's still Herian. She's disconnected from a part of herself, not gone. ( it's important to say that out loud. it's always important to say that out loud, she thinks, no matter who it is,
which is the difference between who she is now and who herian remembers, but that's another conversation entirely. )
Tranquil don't feel but they aren't any stupider than they were in the first place. They might not feel any particular way about disrespect or callousness, but they understand and recognise it. Use respect as a framework and be mindful of your own feelings. Yours being forceful will just make things complicated for her. It's easier to engage with Tranquil if you can do it calmly and directly.
There's things in my world. Not the same as Tranquility, but conditions and procedures that can deeply affect personality and temperament. People who experience them are still people. And ... my understanding is that Tranquility doesn't affect memory, at least in recall of what literally happened, which is even more... it's ... it won't be hard for me to remember that she's still Herian.
[It certainly will be hard in a variety of other ways, but even so.]
I appreciate ... I'm glad you know it too. That she'll know people around who know it's still her and don't only see what's been done to her. And I'll do my best to make sure I'm in control before I go.
[So probably not directly after this conversation, for all she's not lashing out in Gwenaëlle's direction and her tone is still even.]
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( in fact, she did work on that assumption, and pressed it specifically because she wanted to know—
maybe for different reasons than cosima would have done, but it's not as if either option was going to make her happy. one way she was selfish, the other, punished needlessly. )
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...noted. Thank you. I. [A pause.] Stephen's taking care of her physically, I assume. Is she. Should I hold off on a visit, or do you think it matters for now?
[She'd known Casimir, a little, though they weren't close. But she still feels like most of her knowledge of Tranquility is academic. She'll take advice, if there is any. This isn't something that's going to resolve in the next few days, or even weeks. Even while most of her is on fury, part of her is on thanking Gwenaëlle, coordinating with Stephen, telling Yseult and Marcus, and if that part is spinning a bit fast, maybe it's not so separate from the fury as it first appears.]
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she's trying not to. it's almost impossible. )
For you, ( she decides, ) it matters. It's— complicated now, for her. I don't know what rationale she's using to judge anything by, yet. She will have one, it's not—
She's still a person. She's still Herian. She's disconnected from a part of herself, not gone. ( it's important to say that out loud. it's always important to say that out loud, she thinks, no matter who it is,
which is the difference between who she is now and who herian remembers, but that's another conversation entirely. )
Tranquil don't feel but they aren't any stupider than they were in the first place. They might not feel any particular way about disrespect or callousness, but they understand and recognise it. Use respect as a framework and be mindful of your own feelings. Yours being forceful will just make things complicated for her. It's easier to engage with Tranquil if you can do it calmly and directly.
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[It certainly will be hard in a variety of other ways, but even so.]
I appreciate ... I'm glad you know it too. That she'll know people around who know it's still her and don't only see what's been done to her. And I'll do my best to make sure I'm in control before I go.
[So probably not directly after this conversation, for all she's not lashing out in Gwenaëlle's direction and her tone is still even.]